I go from LOVING a picture and being SO incredibly proud of myself for finding the right light, composition, and flattering pose for the couple or individual to critiquing all of the little things. From hair whisps that are out of place, awkward arms, hands without purpose, the slightly yellow-ish tinge from the warm sunlight glow, or the slight crookedness of the ground in a photo that I could have straightened.
Being our own biggest critic can be crippling and I constantly struggle with this in both photography and life. When people come over to our apartment I worry about the little things that they probably don't even notice or care about. The out of place pillow, the water marks around the sink you can only see from a certain angle, and heaven forbid the dishes aren't done so if they need a glass or mug we have enough for everyone. I find myself apologizing for the unseen "mess" as people arrive.
I've found that a lot of what keeps me from moving forward is my crippling ability to find a flaw in everything or my worry about other people's judgement of my photographs. Do people see the photo like I do? Do they like the colors? Is the photo sharp enough? Is the background too grainy? Why didn't I give them clearer direction? What's her hand doing just hanging there?
My constant questions, worries, and concerns are crippling and since one of my BHAGs for this year is to get this business off the ground I need to step out of my box, stop worry SO much about what other people think, and take a chance on myself and my work. My biggest goal for my business this year is to take chances, get comfortable in front of clients, and have more confidence in my work.
Let's go 2013! I'm ready for you!
PS - I'm super excited that the Workshop Experience (by Katelyn James) I attended back in November has been featured in Green Wedding Shoes!!
Remember this photo?
More to come so soon!!